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Now my days are just a continuous flow of "Find Job, Apply" and it's not so bad yet because I have only done it for one week. I figure I'll be pretty stressed out about it in a couple more weeks when I start worrying that I'll never find a new job.
For now, I've just been doing a lot of thinking and spending time with friends and family. Events like this in my life tend to push me closer to those that care about me and want to help me. They are my support group. I'd say life support, but I don't feel like I've died just because I've lost my job. I think there are those that identify themselves more with their job, so they are probably taking being laid off with much more difficulty.
It's funny, I feel like I've just been inducted into some kind of private club- the laid off club. People in the laid off club know all about secretive rituals like applying for EI (employment insurance). "Don't worry, " said my fellow laid off club member conspiratorially, "I'll show you how to apply for EI!" EI sounded like a very important and mysteriously unbelievable gift.
"So... while I'm not working, the government will pay me money?"
"Yup! But don't think of it as free, you've been paying premiums for this all along."
"Oh... "
EI sounded like a pretty good deal to me. I didn't have to work and I'd still be paid. I started to wonder what other cool deals I'd been missing out on by being the average, steady worker.
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So now, here I am re-examining my life, wondering what there is in store for me. Should I continue working in video games? Should I change careers and become a teacher or a nurse? Should I just get an average 9-5 job so I can pay the bills and not worry about a "career"? What should I do? It's amazing how many choices there are and the simple fact that I can choose again.
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Best wishes as you examine your options.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great post. So many people are in your same position and are feeling the same way. I know how difficult it can seem, but I was reading just the other day in a biz magazine that online blogging / portfolios can really give you an edge in your job search (it actually just helped me find a job!) so don't lose hope, your blog is awesome, and shows that you are a very talented person! Check out www.carbonmade.com. it allows you to create art portfolios for free and they look very clean and professional. Good Luck!!
ReplyDeleteI do indeed think that...and I often wonder if you would get that sense of purpose from your paying job...or if it comes from something else? I hope you find it...and I hope that you find the next door that is open for you!
ReplyDeleteI hope something works out soon.
ReplyDeleteoh good luck! I was unemployed for months and months, but have now got a job again (yay)
ReplyDeletenow that you've got so much free time (joke! I remmber how all-consuming the search and application process is) I've tagged you: http://niftyknits-somuchyarnsolittletime.blogspot.com/2009/08/eeeek-ive-been-given-award.html
Time for new and better horizons!
ReplyDeleteTime for new and better horizons!
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