It has been 5 months since Poggy has been gone. I stopped by his grave today and left some flowers. Poor fellow, I wonder what he's doing in Hedgehog Heaven?
While he might be long gone, his mealworms are doing great. With no one to eat them, they are multiplying like crazy. I wish Poggy was around to eat them up :P Those lucky living bugs.
Work and wedding plans have been going well in the meanwhile. I only work part time, but it's enough to give me a good glimpse into the real life of a nurse. It's a lot different than I thought it would be. I get to help people every time I go to work, but I have also seen a lot of death since I've started. I've also seen a lot of blood. It's unsettling to see so much blood.
I feel like Lady Macbeth at times looking down at my hands and wondering if my hands will ever be clean. "Out, damned spot! out, I say!... /Here's the smell of the blood still: /All the perfumes of Arabia will not sweeten this little Hand. /Oh, oh, oh!"
I miss Poggy. I used to find it comforting after a hard day to come home to my sweet little friend. It made me feel so much better. Now he is gone and I have no one to give me the same kind of comfort. Who would have guessed such a prickly, anti-social creature could have made me feel so much better? He was better than the most bitter medicine.
Sometimes I reach out at night and put my hand on the pillow where he used to sleep beside me when I took naps after a long, hard day of work. I used to be able to cup my hand on him and he would snuff at me, but let me leave my hand there as we both rested. We had a good time together, he and I. It was a good relationship.
I hope one day I will have a little hedgehog like him again. It won't be for a while since I have so much wedding planning and travelling over the next while, but hopefully one day it will happen again.
Hello and goodbye, little one. I hope you are happy wherever you are.
